Monday, August 8, 2011

Forever Ago

It has been forever ago that I last posted. I had given up on blogging, feeling that there was nothing "exciting" worth blogging about...or reading about, for that matter. I have decided to start back up, if only to purge my thoughts, but maybe also to stay connected to those that are far from me.

A lot has happened. Where to start....

1) My new home (not exactly new any more) is Hope, Rhode Island. I love my home. Cows across the street. Lake in the back. Wonderful neighbors. And space. Lots of space.

2) I have transitioned into a full-time midwife. The past year has been very bumpy and I was not sure I would make it, but, amazingly I did. And I feel stronger for it.

3) My father died. One day he was there, and the next he was gone. This is not something that I have completely come to grips with and something that has deeply effected me in ways that I am not even sure I am aware of yet. This is a daily struggle for me.

4) I have not been on my mat for almost a year!

A year ago I would not have believed any of these things were possible. Not a single one. I spoke with a yogi friend of mine today and just talking with her motivated me to start blogging again. If if it is only for me, maybe it will help me to be more aware, present, and reflective.

So, I am going to start practicing again. Even if it is just Surya A and B, with closing postures, I will get back to my mat.

I am going to keep up with my reading. Less TV. More books.

I am going to start journaling/writing. I was told to do this by a healer in India, and have resisted.


What I am reading now: The Tiger's Wife

2 comments:

  1. First blog I read in a log time. I also can not get myself onto my mat. Almost four months for me. The drama, the fake yogis that find their way into every nook and cranny have made practice unimportant and unbearable.

    We miss you. Thanks for blogging.

    ReplyDelete